ARGH...
Shit i cant sleep..
i am really pissed..
Was really missing you alot..how about you?
The way that you are treating me really makes me feel that i am not important at all.
What you mean by Off day doesnt really have to go out?
Please la.
u can meet your friend out yesterday to have fun and totally forget that u promise to call me back. do you have any idea that i actually waited for your call till late?
and i even massage you that dear i going to sleep le. but you don even care to reply me a good night or something.
and your words of calling me back really makes me think that is a way of hanging the phone cause you don wanna talk to me anymore cuz u don bother to really call back and i have been like a fool to take it to heart and really wait for you to call back. it already happened for few times already.
And now when i hear this from you I WILL CALL YOU BACK LATER i am really pissed. i really hate this sentence.
FOr you, i have already changed my temper to the extend that i cant take it now.
Now the word that come out from you has been more and more hurtful and more and more demanding.
i cant take it as thought i dont care anymore.
The DA NAN REN in you is getting more and more strong.
i cant take it anymore.
i cant always close one eye and agree to what you wanna do.
you would only consider yourself den what about my feelings?
Yeah right, sometimes you have your own idea or thinking but me lei..
you once shoot me that you are not a guy that will follow whatever i say or want cause you have your own thinking.
do you have any idea that from the starting is actually me the one who is following and doing what you wanted?
and its only like a few times that i wanted things to go my way and you got angry and shooted me this sentence.
Today,
at night i called you.
i asked you why you never go out today?
you said actually you think of going out to have a drink or sth but then its not necessary a must to go out on off day. and so you stayed at home.
Then how about me?
Never even got a chance to talk to you yesterday.
was thinking of asking you out for a movie after my class.
den next message and called you in the morning and no reply.
afternoon called you and you just wake up.
asking you that you still wanna sleep after you have slept so long and you said yes.
not to be irritating and so i said You go coninue your sleep then.
you said WHEN I WAKE UP I WILL GIVE YOU A CALL again this sentence.
in my mind i was thinking How long do i have to wait again this time?
and it was already 4+ in the afternoon how am i goin to catch a movie by the time you wake up?
and so i said nvm You don have to call back la and bye bye
And at night you said all those of off day not going out.
How i wish that you wounld able to make and effort to call me when you wake up even if i said you don have to or even a message to care bout what am i doing?
From the start, i have been trying to ask you out everytime but most of the time i gt rejected. which i don feel really good. its as thought i am wooing after you.
and please know that i am your GF.
I believe to most people Gf have alway have the Quan Li to go out with the Bf any time and most of the Bf will always try to make themselves free to meet the GF.
But for US,
i am always the 1 who is trying to find free time for us to meet.
and UR FRIEND are the one who have the Quan Li to have you anytime and anywhere.
But me?
NO
Whenever you are meeting your friend i can never join in half way or being invited to any of the outing.
But for them, whenever i am meeting you, you can suddenly say that who is who will be joining us and when i am meeting my friend i would always try to ask u along or when your friend call i will say ask them down la or sth. But how about you?
Think for this whole 3 month, i realise that you enjoy more with your friends than the time you are with me, no matter with my friend or with me alone.
go and think and see if this is true.
